Friday, September 25, 2009

Note to Self

In a future life if such life exists, think wisely the next time you procreate. Make sure the man with whom you decide to spawn with does not think of only himself and his money. (For all I know there is not such man that would exist). But if there is let him show himself unto the rest of the world and prove to me the reason we need them in the first place.

If it wasn't for the sweet smile of an adorable toddler who loves me all the way up to the sun. I just don't know how I am going to make it through the next fifty years.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Robbery

I made another attempt to visit the Sears store yesterday after work. This time I called in reinforcements, my good friend and one of my birthing coaches Annettie. I figured if we could tag team the Tasmanian toddler I could find a dress and call it a day. To state for the record I don't normally shop at Sears but I had a gift card that was burning a hole in my already empty wallet and I needed a dress for a wedding this Friday.
We went to a mall that does not have the extra glitz of a two tiered carousel. Lucky for me there were racks upon racks of clearance dresses of all shapes and sizes. I loaded up my arms with a variety of black and white cocktail dresses then headed to the dressing room. All the while Morgan is walking under the rack of dresses claiming she was in the car wash. It drives me nuts when kids are wild in a department store, mine included! I am only beginning to understand why the mothers with the monster children are in the store in the first place. They are all single parents who have no time to themselves and have stuff that needs to be done, if they are anything like me the ears are all on what their child is doing while the eye contact is focused on the clothes rack and the little old lady across the aisle with her mouth agape.
Annette decides she will entertain my cute monstrosity on the escalator while I try on eight different styles of dresses. Just as I am trying on the final dress I hear my child yelling from outside "MOM" "I don't see you", that's the idea kid. Good thing this final dress was the one I choose to purchase because I could tell the crazy was about to unleash in the all ready rambunctious angel. I made my way back to the dress aisle to make a final sweep of choices, when what do my wandering eyes should appear....the shoes! The table a football field long of shoes! ALL.ON.SALE. in my hey day I had more shoes than Pravda(not really but I can dream). Of course a black sling back three inch heal caught my eye for $9.99. Not to forget the undergarments I went there too. By this time Morgan is full steam ahead running up and down the aisles. I remind her that the store is not the playground, but damn if I had the money I would invest in a non-destructible clothing store where children could run wild for a small fee. Imagine the fun the toddlers could have swinging from the round metal racks and wiping their nose against the bottoms of old dresses no-one will buy. The Mom's could all sit around drinking coffee and admire each others shoes!
I make my way to the checkout to notice a small display of accessories, pins, headbands, earrings and such, what the heck I will see how much this cute flower pin is too. As the young girl dressed much more fashionable than me behind the counter rings up my order she scans the tag of my dress already at a ridiculously low price of $24.99 she smiles and says $12.49, "WHA" no way I never get that lucky. My undergarments were also half price and my cute accessories tagged at $9.00 were 99 CENTS! Morgan then looks at me and before she could speak I "ssshhh" her and tell her "not now mommy is robbing Sears"! not really but the prices the cute checkout girl was given me were a STEAL! after I used my gift card of $30 out of pocket I paid $10.43. Gotta love the feeling of a great deal.
We left the store an outfit in hand with accessories and not one mention of a carousel ride! So I let Morgan buy a giant super-ball and throw it around the mall just to get her excitement out!

Friday, September 18, 2009

Should have saved for a meandering day

Things I have noticed this week......
- I am out of fashion! After spending and hour in the mall the other day, quickly browsing and listening to the meltdown of a toddler every time I entered a store that was not near the carousel or had some sort of child entertainment. I took a quick look at the young girls in the stores wearing what I did when I was 15, really with the skinny jeans and hi-tops. My hips would never get away with that look now a days. Then I took a glance in the mirror and thought oui what have I become. I have not shopped for myself in so long I don't even know where to begin putting pieces together for a new wardrobe(not that I could afford one right now). Still I can not focus, who brought that annoying beast of a child in this store who sounds like a broken record "I WANNA GO ON THE CAROUSEL" over and over again?? OH yeah that would be mine I recognize the blonde hair but not the face buried into the rug below the shiny ruffled tops.
- Enough with the roots already! My hair is in desperate need of scissors and bleach or some sort of hair color. Honestly I can not remember the last time I had it done. Last week I liked the longer look but today it's gotta go! If it wasn't for the grey throwing off the highlights my roots are a good two and a half inches long. Something has to be done before I pull a Britney!
- Life is short! I attended a funeral yesterday in support of a friend who lost her sister in-law to soon. The young mother of two(10yr & 3yr) was only 32 years old. As I sat and listened to the service I longed to run home and squeeze Morgan, knowing time is precious and we don't get to choose our time to leave we can only cherish the time we have.
- Five day work weeks are hard! This was the first full week of work since January. I go back to four days next week. As much as I miss the pay I enjoy the time with my baby (I mean big girl) more.
- Never take a potty training toddler out to dinner by yourself! I had a taste for a steak the other day, so I decided on the place with the peanuts. Thought it would be a nice distraction for a toddler to peel her own peanuts and teach her to throw the shells on the floor. My thought proved to be a 15 min time killer until she had to go PEE. We made our way to the public bathroom which I cringe because it is hard enough for me to hover over the seat let alone try to hold a squirming toddler. We made it out alive. Our dinner came and she had to PEE again. I assured our waitress we were not trying to dine and dash and not to clear our table, she just laughed. Two trips to the public bathroom, still alive. What a pain in the ass to have to carry your purse, secure your table and take a 10 minute potty break!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

About Last Night

This may sound as if I don't love every minute I spend with my darling daughter. Let me assure you I would give my last dying breathe for that child of mine. There comes a time in a single parents life when holy begeezious you just need a break from the mundane routine of it all.

Last night my more than generous in-laws, who I never broke up with since the divorce, took Morgan for the night. I did not realize until I got home from a couple stores that I leisurely strolled through, stopping to smell new shoes and notice over priced sales tags. I got home sat on the couch flipped on the TV banned all shows that involve music and learning, switched to the free on demand movies. Made a trip to the bedroom to find my cozy pants, a comfortable pillow, and Breaking Dawn. Before I opened my dinner, a bag of White Castle. I called to check in on Morgan who had informed me that she had not cried about me and was running for the door to get her last ride on the golf cart for the night with her Grandpa. I proceeded to watch Made of Honor, which was a cute funny chic flick just perfect for my night alone! It was 6pm the night was young and I was on my couch eating food without worrying if anything would drop on the floor, not being beckoned to the play room to make supper, there was not one demand to turn on Dora and get another juice. There was only me, my remote, a book and the comfort of home.

Only thing was I had to take a Tylenol PM to get to sleep because I missed the little princess so much, my mind kept wondering if she was ok. I knew she was but my mothering instinct would not shut off, something tells me it never will. Once the sleep came I didn't know I really needed it until this morning when I woke to my alarm and felt refreshed for the day, rejuvenated to start over again. This parenting job is tough, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.