Moving on....I have to keep a positive attitude and remind myself that life as I know it is filled with the littlest blessings. The days when I am spent and at the end of my rope the need to vent off the hardest of times in words can be the best therapy for me. Thank you for the kind words and the continued safety net you people put up for me. You have to know I would do the same for you. This single mom journey is hard at times but is the most fulfilling, I am greatful whatever the day may bring.
The fall brings many things to my mind besides the bitter chilly mornings and early dark nights, it also marks many turning points in my life. It brings a time to reflect of how I got from there to here with a beautiful smart toddler calling me Mom. Morgan will be 3 in a few weeks, where has the time gone. It seems only yesterday the endless trips to the doctors offices trying to conceive for four long years, then bam here she is....then my heart exploded!! All those millions of pieces of my heart are being replaced with the laughter one little girl can make.
The dreams I had of being a family were the practical ones I guess, a family vision something different than my own upbringing. I can't remember ever having my parents living under one roof together. For now this family Morgan and Me is awesome and right now I wouldn't want it any other way!
This post was written some time ago back in the beginning of October, I felt it necessary to let you in on my thoughts before I let you know what has happened since. Little did I know where my life would turn, on that day, the same morning I was writing this entry and left it for future post. I had a lunch date with a friend and a co-worker of hers she thought I would like to meet. Keeping my expectations low and telling myself its just lunch made my world so much brighter than I ever thought it could be. I was happy for the most part not in a hurry to find someone to spend my spare time with after all I had a little girl fawning for much of my attention. But there at lunch across the table from me sat a man with a soul much different than I am used to.
The fall brings many things to my mind besides the bitter chilly mornings and early dark nights, it also marks many turning points in my life. It brings a time to reflect of how I got from there to here with a beautiful smart toddler calling me Mom. Morgan will be 3 in a few weeks, where has the time gone. It seems only yesterday the endless trips to the doctors offices trying to conceive for four long years, then bam here she is....then my heart exploded!! All those millions of pieces of my heart are being replaced with the laughter one little girl can make.
The dreams I had of being a family were the practical ones I guess, a family vision something different than my own upbringing. I can't remember ever having my parents living under one roof together. For now this family Morgan and Me is awesome and right now I wouldn't want it any other way!
This post was written some time ago back in the beginning of October, I felt it necessary to let you in on my thoughts before I let you know what has happened since. Little did I know where my life would turn, on that day, the same morning I was writing this entry and left it for future post. I had a lunch date with a friend and a co-worker of hers she thought I would like to meet. Keeping my expectations low and telling myself its just lunch made my world so much brighter than I ever thought it could be. I was happy for the most part not in a hurry to find someone to spend my spare time with after all I had a little girl fawning for much of my attention. But there at lunch across the table from me sat a man with a soul much different than I am used to.
