Monday Meandering #14

Do you ever have a weekend where you just felt like it came and went? The weekend that by Sunday night you felt like you should have done this and should have done that? It seems I got myself into a bit of a slump a halt if you will to be productive, I blame it on the fall timeline. The early sunset and the late sunrise, it feels like it is dark all the time, has put an early blah in blah, blah, BLAH! I need to kick myself into a new routine anyone got any ideas? what do you do when your steam has run low?

I guess I am tired of responsibility trying to sell a house, pay bills, looking for a place to live when the time comes to leave the house I have known, single motherhood, and not having someone to bitch about not replacing the light bulb in the garage. I know this too shall pass and I have to stop trying to control everything, but damn it is hard.

They are not kidding when they say time flys

Last night Morgan and I spent sometime outside because allergies be damned I will enjoy the last few days of sun and warm comfortable temperatures even when it means I suffer from hay fever. As we wandered around the yard pointing at different bugs in the grass and Morgan walking through EVERY dried up pile of grass left by the lawnmower. I took a minute to watch her walk, jump, and fall down just to hear her say "UH-OH faaaallll down, git UP"! She talks so much now a days there is nothing she doesn't try to say. Right down to when I answer her I use the word baby or honey at the end of the answer and she will repeat after me like "it's ok honey" or "listen baby, you have to listen". It is just so cute to hear her tiny voice, I often make her recite the Five Little Monkeys book cause "doctor says no no monkeys jump on bed". We eventually made our walk over to the neighbors swing set because of my daughters love affair with the swing. The swing at the beginning of the summer she could not hold onto or had enough coordination to stay on for very long, eventually turned into swinging on her tummy, and now she can sit on the swing hold on and lean back as far as she can screaming "push me HIGHER MOMMIE"!
I can't believe in just a few short summer months this girl has went from itsy bitsy baby to full on itsy bitsy toddler, all 23 months and 21.6 pounds of her, no fear of bugs, heights, or falling. My girl is in constant motion right down to bed time, she can be a chatter box reading her books to go to bed now within a matter of minutes. Your typical tom-boy if you will, loves to point out every digger or dump truck she sees while in the car, and loves to run in mud puddles. Occasionally she will play with her baby doll but only to put her in the baby stroller and chase the dog around the house. One the other hand she loves to play with her little bunny house and carefully puts each one to sleep and covers them up with their tiny sheets. She also helps me clean the house and loves to take a wad of TP to wipe out the hair from the tub, so glad because I am tired of doing it. With so much all toddler, all the time I have no time to sit down and capture the present, or think of what comes next. I just know that I want to remember these times for as long as my memory will serve me because this tiny girl has the ambition I can only dream of. It makes me so proud to know my baby girl is ready to take on this world full speed ahead. I only hope I have enough in me to keep up, heaven help me year number 3 is approaching quicker than the last one.

Monday Meanderings #13

What do you mean it is Tuesday?? Well you could be right I was walking around yesterday in a drug induced coma of cold remedies with a toddler attached to my hip whining about wanting grapes and not wanting grapes unless she was able to sit on my lap at the table and eat them. Anyway being the first day of Fall Morgan felt it fitting to come down not only with a cold the week before but with a rash which made us stay home yesterday morning. For me this worked out great because I never really got the 8 hours of sleep I deserved the night before, so bonus I got a nap from 11am-12:30pm. I know your thinking what does a nap feel like in the beginning of the afternoon when most of us are thinking about lunch? It feels pretty.damn.nice. until the dog starts barking just as you wake because "HOLY SHIT, there is a cat in the yard let me outside!!!" so see your not so jealous anymore are you?
I found a couple hours of time this weekend to sew, yes sew as in plug in a sewing machine Miss Suzy Homemaker, fabric measured(took an educated guess) and bought myself, seat covers for the couch. Tell me is it a good thing or a bad thing when standing in line at the fabric counter to have the old lady behind you admire the mint paisley pattern you choose to use to cover your couch? I happen to think the splash of pink gives it a little character. Here would be a nice insert for a picture but you can use you imagination. I ran out of fabric (so much for the educated guess) just as I was getting in the groove of sewing at 11:45pm on a Saturday night, OH what a challenging life I lead! So I have two cushions that will have to wait for the next time I have a couple hours to myself.
On Sunday along came this head cold that my dear child has been carrying for a week. The cold has now found it's way into my body where it will fester and reek havoc until my cranky old body decides it has had enough, which my body and mind have time differences all the time. So if you'll excuse me, I think it is time for my meds the ones that will hopefully put an end to this suffering.

Job Well Done, maybe

So I missed Monday Meanderings two weeks in a row, whatcha gonna do about it??? huh huh! I thought so. I am the only one beating myself up about the issue and this whole holding myself accountable thing is not working. It works as well as my checkbook, which hasn't been balanced in oh I don't know 3 months. When I can't seem to zip my wallet closed anymore because I can't cram any more receipts into it I'll try and get around to it, which was sometime last week.

The only explanation I can come up with is time, time flys. I guess I am just enamored with the fact that I am a single mom who does have enough time in the day to get to everything on the "to do list" which would include picking up toilet paper. How does one forget toilet paper after going to the store 4 times??!! I often sit back and wonder how I made it this far, how I managed to juggle this life I lead. Kinda like the jumping through the wall of fire while on a tight rope all while balancing a monkey on your back. I think I may have referred to my life as a circus but it is the only analogy I can think of at this time. That and why have only the frumpy men over the age of 43 men winked at me on match.com??!! Have I lost my young appearance or is the lack of "likes to dance on tables" make the men my age pass on by??

Whatever the reason I know my role as Mother is already proving to be 22 months well spent. I know this because when we go through the drive-thru my girl not only assumes every window will provide her with "french fries" but also "mommie cappuccino". Which kinda makes my eyes watery because what kid do you know at 22 months says "cappuccino" clear.as.day?! And just this morning the fall allergy season can really have me sneezing in the morning, my girl will bless me everytime which sounds like "bessh you momma" and she then will cough and tell me "I coughin, sick". Then she will remind me that the "moon goin down, sun comin up" at least 50 times before we get off the freeway, then she will yell "school bus" or "see that?" which I am really not sure how to respond to. Then when I finally get her to daycare and hand her off "momma go ta work, make money". Yes the only reason Mommy goes to work is to make money we never actually see or neither one of us even knows exists.

BLAH

Can someone please bring me a pillow and a small cot? The week has finally caught up to me, my eyes look like I was sucker punched twice(one for each eye)!
Lucky for me SD said he would pick up Morgan from his mothers and I can go home and take a nap on the couch. Count down 4 hours 10 minutes 37 seconds.

Have a nice weekend!

BTW - Finally got an offer on the house.....YEHA $90K less than asking price they can SUCK IT!

Sleepy Tyme

I sit here in my pj's listening to the evening sounds of the fan humming from the room next door. Just beyond the wall lays my baby girl asleep, tummy full from a late dinner, washed from head to toe with a new berry burst bath soap, and thoroughly spent from the day. She tricked me into three books instead of two and rocking her in the rocking chair tonight. She played the snuggle me card that not many Mom's get from an almost 23 month old. When my girl gets really sleepy she likes to be tickled, an expression that means to barely touch her skin so she gets tiny goose bumps that puts her into a trance. "tickle me mommie" she says "tickle, legs, tickle tummie, tickle back" moving in positions so my hand gets just the right spot. As she nuzzles her way into my chest I rock, submitting to her requests, realizing she no longer fits comfortably but rather cramped up trying to get the perfect spot so she can fall asleep with me. I cherish these nights for there will come a day she will not need the comfort of my touch or the reassurance that I will see her in the morning.

As a Mom I find no greater gift than the moments I find my girl needs me, trust that I will be there for her, and all she has to say is "tickle mommie"

Labor Day Weekend

Morgan and I finally took a trip "up north" to Oscoda. I have been wanting to go all summer but just couldn't pick the right time. I was glad that BFF&A had suggested we go for the last weekend of the summer. So glad we did the weather was perfect all weekend and with the exception of a few hundred ants in the cabin(all under extermination) we didn't need to use the heater or be stuffed inside because of rain. We did go up on Saturday and only stayed two nights but it was so worth the trip. Morgan viewed her first fireworks, that she would recall as thunder in the sky. Her heart was so full of joy that she could run down the beach in the sand as fast as she could and yell "I runnin" as fast as her little legs would take her. We spent a little time at the beach park swinging and sharing the slide.

BFF&A had her side kick Alex-an-Der with her, he had a great time too. He especially liked to just hang out at the cabin and play on the wood fence in the neighbors yard. I can't believe I captured a moment of Morgan hugging Alex-an-Der as she seemed to want to tell him what to do every once in awhile. "Come here Alex-an-Der" "no-no Alex-an-Der" "Sit Down Alex-an-Der" I just don't know where she gets the bossy-ness from.

I will ohhhh and ahhhhh you with some cute photos. Hope your week is picking up I have to go lie down I still have jet leg from to much fun!