Finding Joy

I have been renewing my faith for almost two years now and have found Kensington Community Church thanks to a good friend KT. Many times I have sat in service and feel as if the pastor is directly speaking to me and I have on many occasions cried tears of happiness and fear. Most times I sit by myself and for an hour I contemplate the messages, most have resonated in me and can be plugged into my own life. Yesterday was no exception, you can listen to or watch the service on their web-site.

Yesterday instead of taking Morgan to the nursery, which is lead by my good friend superstar I brought Morgan with me. She had fallen asleep on the way to church so I thought she would just cuddle and fall back to sleep in the service. The message this week about Joy, was full of funny videos and opened up with the band singing Footloose, I mean how cool is that a church bringing back 1984??!! Needless to say there would be no sleeping, but total involvement on behalf of my child. She was good for about 40 minutes then we were off to sit in the parenting room to listen to the rest of the sermon. Out of the norm they played a couple songs at the end of the service, so I went back into the auditorium, figuring the talking of my daughter will be drowned out by the music and she would enjoy listening.
The final song was very upbeat, spiritual and got the congregation on their feet. I was sitting toward the front about 12 rows back, on the end seat and decided to let Morgan stand and dance next to me. As we were participating in the song Morgan decided she wanted to stand in front so she clapped her hands and danced all the way down the aisle to the front and stood next to the pastor. In that moment I was overcome by JOY!! God was there giving me a this is what parenthood is for moment! Most parents would have picked their child up and went back to their seats but I stood next to mine and we clapped as tears filled my eyes, this was my child my baby girl full of JOY and happy to be dancing, singing, and putting smiles on faces of other parishioners, for them to see all 27 inches of a baby they never met dance and feel what God has given her!
We danced as if no one was watching at that moment I wished every second could be bottled and preserved forever. A moment that made me forget about sleepless nights and tipping the dinner plate to the dog, a time I will remember when she gets mad because I won't let her wear make-up or date or move out because she is my daughter and everyday with her is my JOY!

Frolicking Friday

I'm gonna start titling my posts saucy sassy names so I don't give anyone the wrong impression of me. I am not bitter, angry, or hold any grudge to anyone who gives me constructive criticism. I can take it I am a big girl and know when to turn away and dodge situation that may seem harmful. Thank all of you for your comments and I will now move on and talk more about Morgan.

Morgan is in daycare and has been for almost a year. Though out this past year the girl has been sick, mostly with whatever the other five kids at daycare have. Cough, Cold, Flu, Pink Eye, thank goodness she has dodged the ear infection bullet. At least once a month something gets pasted along that cost me $25 for a trip the doctor and $10 to the Meijer pharmacy. It should be no surprise to me that she is sick again, but this time four days after the trip to the doctor Monday, where the doctor said she is fine just a cough give her the decongestant from last time!

Yesterday morning after her bottle as usual she will lay in bed with me and cuddle and slowly wake. Only yesterday morning after five minutes of peaceful slumber I was puked on!! and then tried to remove us from the bed without soiling the sheets I just changed the night before only to be puked on again, and once more on her bedroom floor while I tried to change her out of her pajamas and me out of the night clothes I had on. The fever didn't show up until the afternoon and into the evening, and was still hanging around 99' this morning. Her appetite has seemed to regain consciousness so I took her to my mother in-law, where she has been feeling better.

I am hoping that the queasy feeling I am getting right now has nothing to do with the flu, and has something to do with the fact that I woke at 4 am this morning and am in need of a nap. There goes the trip to Kohls to spend my $20 gift card on a hot new number for Saturday.

Back Peddle Thursday

OK so you all think I am some type of home wreckin tramp???!!! The mini-skirt and stripper shoes all a joke people. COME ON! You are entitled to your own opinions, but geez did you have to take me so seriously??!! Perhaps I made my last post seem desperate and maybe I should not have mentioned that BTC is single and dating.

Is is so wrong for me to have dinner with an old friend and share conversation?

I am not trying to break up anyones relationship nor would I ever want to make someone feel the way I did not to long ago. This friend BTC is well aware of what I have been through, and I hope that he puts those feelings into consideration when he asked me if I wanted to hang out. If in the course of our time out together it is implied that I may be the other woman I am driving myself right home.

Please forgive me if I sounded as if I was planning my next future with an exisiting friend. At the time of the post I was just excited to have the opportunity to go out with someone of the opposite sex and have some fun. Thank you to my BFF&A for calling me and reassuring me of my common sense judgement over people and she knows I have considered my risk.

***I do appreciate your comments and advice, I did ask for it. I know you are all just looking out for my best interest.