A year, really?

It has been quite sometime that I have even attempted to write here, writers block perhaps, or maybe no time. So much has happened in a year, new love, new house, new family, new car, my girl turning 4, wow I need to start writing these things down. Where should I begin how about here like now and then digress as I go, ready? ok here goes................
Currently A Mom and Her Girl is living with A Man and His Boy, oh I feel a title change coming on. We are all adjusting pretty fine, with the what I call normal transitions a blended family could expect I guess or at least what I call normal considering my upbringing. It is so different raising a child when you have a partner, something I am experiencing for the first time.
In a year it has taken me sometime to get used to the fact I have someone who is willing to take care of my girl while I am needing that Mommy down time. In the beginning I was apprehensive to say the least not wanting to take advantage of my new love, but he is more than happy to give up his time to spend time with my girl. They have a bond now one that I hope and know will only grow and I know he will be a great example of how a little girl should be loved.
We have been in our new place for over a year now and it still feels like a new place but with an old feel, it is comfort, it is where we hang our hat along with our clothes, shoes, toys, and stuff. Oh the stuff! It feels like I have been purging for a year with nothing to show but room for no more stuff!! Our home is where love resides with our stuff and that is all that matters to me, I can't imagine where I love to be more.
The wonderful man in my life has earned a nickname as Hot Toddie, or my Todder (as Morgan refers to him). Todd has brought more to my world than I ever thought or expected to have if I ever wished on the brightest star. Besides my lil' girl he brings me a feeling of "love" and self-worth. More on him later.
I guess you can say there is a new spark to start writing again, after a year hiatus this should make for some interesting reading to come.

Back on the Horse

I need to get back on track. The track I was on before I gained 20 pounds then got pregnant gained another 20 pounds, only to lose 20 then now really want to lose 15 or 20 more to be happy with myself. I can't seem to get back to that place where I would go to the gym, drink lots of water, so much water a fish would be jealous, and be able to walk stairs without being winded. I know I have a toddler and she keeps me busy believe me, but the energy at the end of my day is nill. How can I get back to the mind-set of feeling good about my body? I guess most of the time being a working mom I feel guilty putting aside the extra hour for me at the end of the day because I want to spend it with my daughter. I am not a real early riser so getting into a routine in the morning may not work, nor do I like the idea of working out at the end of the day after I put her to bed. So where do I begin, with what will-power can I give myself that will make me feel good about taking time to get in shape?

Since we last met... (wow that was a long time ago)

Moving on....I have to keep a positive attitude and remind myself that life as I know it is filled with the littlest blessings. The days when I am spent and at the end of my rope the need to vent off the hardest of times in words can be the best therapy for me. Thank you for the kind words and the continued safety net you people put up for me. You have to know I would do the same for you. This single mom journey is hard at times but is the most fulfilling, I am greatful whatever the day may bring.
The fall brings many things to my mind besides the bitter chilly mornings and early dark nights, it also marks many turning points in my life. It brings a time to reflect of how I got from there to here with a beautiful smart toddler calling me Mom. Morgan will be 3 in a few weeks, where has the time gone. It seems only yesterday the endless trips to the doctors offices trying to conceive for four long years, then bam here she is....then my heart exploded!! All those millions of pieces of my heart are being replaced with the laughter one little girl can make.
The dreams I had of being a family were the practical ones I guess, a family vision something different than my own upbringing. I can't remember ever having my parents living under one roof together. For now this family Morgan and Me is awesome and right now I wouldn't want it any other way!

This post was written some time ago back in the beginning of October, I felt it necessary to let you in on my thoughts before I let you know what has happened since. Little did I know where my life would turn, on that day, the same morning I was writing this entry and left it for future post. I had a lunch date with a friend and a co-worker of hers she thought I would like to meet. Keeping my expectations low and telling myself its just lunch made my world so much brighter than I ever thought it could be. I was happy for the most part not in a hurry to find someone to spend my spare time with after all I had a little girl fawning for much of my attention. But there at lunch across the table from me sat a man with a soul much different than I am used to.