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Two of the cutest kids brought to earth but I am bias.......Luke and Morgan at Luke's birthday party on June 21, 2008.
Tomorrow Luke turns 3!!

Monday Meandering #5

Can you believe I have made it five weeks of meandering?? yeha me neither.

The wedding was really nice, my third cousin and his new bride got married in the courtyard and had the reception all at the hotel where we were staying. My brother, my sister in-law and nephew Luke all got a room together for the night. The hotel features a waterpark where the kids went to play while we enjoyed our meal with drinks at the reception. Remember my BFF&A I spoke about before well she came to the hotel and watched the kids while we partied like rock-stars down the hall! No you can not have my friend or borrow her she is all mine. My daughter was the first one to sleep by 9pm and did not wake up until 9am the next morning, she was partied out. Needless to say I did not get much sleep the room was spinning until about 3am and I woke at 7am thinking Morgan would be up any minute and never really fell back into a sleep. It is getting harder for me to recover from these events involving alcohol.
I know you are all wondering what the stats were on the single male front, let me just say there was a little dancing involved but no exchange of names or phone numbers. I was just happy to be hanging out with family to tell you the truth, we all were dressed to the 9's but still had potty mouths, some of us anyway I am more reserved in that area. There was a moment my brother felt it was time to get more Jack Daniels after the bar closed so he left the building on foot in search of a liquor store while me being the responsible big sister waited in the parking lot for his return, only to find out the liquor store also closed. THANK.GOD.
I have pictures I like to share but they haven't been downloaded yet I will try at a later time to humor you all a little more with my fake tan from a bottle and make you envious of the Jessica Simpson shoes I got for $10! Surprisingly they are very comfortable if your NOT dancing all.night.long.

All dressed up

I am going to a wedding Saturday, not a big fancy schindig just a casual mild family gathering in a banquet hall with flowers, cake, and love bird songs filling the air. It just occured to me this is the first wedding I am attending since my divorce. I no longer have to make excuses as to why my husband is not there nor will anyone ask me where he is. In facted all the questions will be about my beautiful daughter which I am more than comfortable boasting about because she is awesome!
So yesterday I spent my afternoon in retail theraphy which is getting pretty expensive for me lately, trying the find a dress that fit my mood and chest. I picked out a traditional black number on my lunch break but decided to check another store on the way home. I found a sassy pink number, I know big suprise pink! that I liked so much more. Now if I could just find the right heals to go with the dress we'll be good.
I wondered while looking at myself when trying on the sassy pink number if there are ever any available men at these types of functions anymore? Does anyone ever really meet someone at a wedding or does it just happen in the movies? Either way I plan to look good trying to find out. Wish me luck!

Childs Play

Yesterday Morgan and I were invited by the in-laws for dinner and to take a spin on their new golf cart. It was a nice change from the ordinary pick up the baby, drive home, cook dinner, play, bath, go to bed night we are used to. After the scenic ride on the golf cart the kids wanted to play in the basement where all the toys dwell and there is enough room to run around and be crazy in the furnished carpeted play area.
My five year old niece is at the age where she loves to make up silly songs while jumping rope and making funny faces. It got me thinking of the silly songs we made up as kids when we would grab a friend and slap each others hands in weird contortionist ways(you know what I am talking about). So I asked her if she knew the one about Miss Sue? I started to sing Miss Sue, Miss Sue, Miss Sue from Alabama sittin in her rocker eatin Betty Crocker, watchin the clock go tick tock.....then I got a brain fart and forgot the rest. I know there is one about an alligator purse and couldn't remember that one either. So when I got home I consulted my sister who is younger than me and I taught her how to sing some of the same songs. My sister told me it had nothing to do with Miss Sue it was Miss Lucy. I knocked myself up side the head because you know how old broads get when they don't take their medication....they jump rope like their five and sing;

Miss Lucy had a steam boat
The steamboat had a bell,(toot.toot.)
Miss Lucy went to heaven and the
Steamboat went to...

Hello operator
Please give me number nine
And if you disconnect me
I'll kick you right.....

Behind the 'fridgerator
There was a piece of glass
Miss Lucy sat upon it
And broke her little........

Ask me no more questions
I'll tell you no more lies (and from here I know a different version, *see below)
The boys are in the bathroom
Pulling down their...

Flies are in the meadow
The bees are in the park
Miss Lucy and her boyfriend
Are kissing in the...

Dark is like a movie
A movie's like a show
A show is like a tv set
And that is all I know.

This and many more silly songs can be found here, HAVE FUN!

*Miss Lucy told me all about this the day before
she dyed her hair all purple
she dyed her hair all pink
she tried to dye it polka dot
and wash it down the ....

Sink me in the ocean,
sink me in the sea,
sink me in the toilet,
But please don't pee on ME!

Monday Meandering #4

Friday night as much as I HATE to let my baby go to spend the night with her father, I found myself welcoming it after the week I had. As much as I LOVE my daughter I needed a break to re-set my mind and close my eyes, because if you have ever been with a 19 month old child you can-not leave your eyes off them for fear of what may be thrown at you or harm that they may cause to themselves. With the baby gone for the night my sister and I went to dinner at the local tavern for a burger but more importantly a beer! The rest of my night I spent at home making a taco salad and drinking more beer while talking with my new friend Sandra who stopped by to say Hello. Lucky for Sandra my sister was making cookies while I was browning hamburger and we all got to sample hot gooey cookies from the oven YUM!
Saturday Morgan returned home in time for a much needed bath and nap. While she slept I loaded up the truck to travel to the west-side for my nephew Luke's birthday party. I only wish the day was a little warmer so the kids could have played in the pool more but it was still a fun time. My nephew got a fancy Pontiac Solstice for his birthday, you should have seen Morgan's eyes when they pulled it out of the box. I think she was more excited than Luke was in fact I think she sat in it first. Forget college I have to save up for a Barbie Corvette for Morgan's second birthday, then perhaps she can take herself to daycare.
Sunday we opted to stay home to reorganize the playroom which took all day. In the end there is more room than before to play without sitting on top of each other. As I cleaned out the toy box I realized some of Morgan's favorite toys weren't so favorite anymore and she was to big for them. I said "to big" my little girl is growing so quickly before my eyes and there is nothing I can do to stop it. It was nice to have the day together and not have to go anywhere. We spent most of our time snacking, reading books, making animals with Play-doh, and vacuuming. The best afternoon I have spent in a long time.

Jealous or Jaded?

Things have just been busy crazy at work for me and I haven't been able to get back to what I started. At this point I'm kinda like a bad girlfriend who keeps wearing the low cut shirt but is never gonna give it up until I want to, so consider this your lucky day!
Last Friday I had the afternoon to myself. SD decided he was gonna put in some parenting time and pick up my baby and bring her home after dinner and of course the park. I went to the Walmart for some retail theraphy and birthday gifts for upcoming events. Somehow I didn't think a 2 year old was going to understand the value of a $10 gas card folded between a white sheet of paper with Happy Birthday written on the front with a blunt red crayon. During my shopping trip I received a call from BTC. We have been talking off and on for about a week. So as not to distrub my shopping anymore I asked him if he wanted to come over and hang out at my house later. He obiliged and we decided we would talk more when he came over to my house. Mind you we are just friends and I have made that decision based on the fact that he is really not over his ex-girlfriend and I choose not to be a rebound, to which he is aware. He is looking for a womans perspective on things so we just chit chat, no harm, no foul, whatever not getting to excited that things will be moving forward anytime soon. Keep that in mind.
I guess it really didn't dawn on me until about 7pm that SD was to arrive with Morgan around 7:30-8pm, what is he gonna think when he drops the baby off and another man is here?? my mind bounced back and forth.. hehehe and this probably isn't a good idea. Around that time BTC got a phone call of the personal matter and he decided to take it outside in his truck. I would later find out it was his girlfriend, confused as to whether she wanted to be with BTC or continue dating a guy from her work. Oh I know sounds to close for comfort but I am just offering him support although at times it breaks open old wounds.
I went about vaccuming my house and picking things up before the baby got home. Just as I was vaccuming the bedroom I heard SD yelling my name, I come out of the room and he says I didn't want to take my shoes off and hands me the baby. The look on his face was one of confusion not knowing what to say I opened up and said "I bet your wondering what a man is doing in my driveway on his phone?"! He looks at me and says what truck? I didn't see no guy on the phone. I said OH you didn't see the truck next to your in the driveway. I'm thinking at this point he is having an out of body experience and I am thankful my daughter made it home. SD leaves without another word. BTC comes back in the house by this time the baby is in the tub. I ask him if SD made any kind of jesture that he was there and he said he waved to him with a crooked smile.
The rest of the night went good I put the baby to bed and BTC talked me into watching an episode of Family Guy(stupid show) only after I told him he was going to watch The Mole on Tivo. That was about all my body had enough time for by 11pm my week was full and told BTC he had to roll out.
Next day SD calls and is very short with me doesn't have much to comment, he had been fighting the last week with his homewrecker and up until Friday night he wanted to move on and find his own place to live. His own place that didn't require a year lease for the sake if we ever got back together he didn't want to be stuck in that lease for a year. Yeha that news struck me a little funny too because I thought we were divorced and I had no idea we were dating again.
By yesterday SD was over his state of confusion and called to tell me that he was concerned about me having a guy over the other night and not to sell myself short. He also told me I was worth more than just a one night stand. Not only is he dating me in his mind, he is also a friend giving me dating advice with other men. At what point do I call the in the clowns??

Monday Meandering #3

This blog brought to you today on a mental scramble that is my brain busy with work so I will leave you with a list of reminders that I will elaborate on later. OOOHHHH kinda like a suspense horror movie with a happy romantic twist!(whatever that means) perhaps you can tell me what you would like to hear first......

1 - this story involves a pepper mill the gift that nobody seems to want
2 - what happens when SD drops off my baby to find a man sitting in his truck talking on his cell phone
3 - the bounce house with two pools, hot dogs and CAKE!
4 - livin la vita loca at work an audit, a test and two many meetings in one week

Now if you will excuse me I have to hold a meeting wearing my Lucky Charms t-shirt, once again not prepared for public speaking. I have such a glamourous life.

Mr. Golden Sun

OOOOOOHHHH Man I just stepped out of the office to retrieve the mail, something I only do when the weather is not raining, snowing, or windy. Let me just tell you if ever there was a time I would want to crank the music with Duran Duran and slather myself with lotion today would be that day!! If you haven't felt the sun today I suggest you go do it right now!

New and Improved

Morgan and I had our pictures taken together on the first of June by a photographer. I wanted to capture some pics of us together candidly and in a nice park setting. My photographer (who is also my realtor) suggested Heritage Park in Shelby Township, what a great choice. He said on some weekends people are lined up for wedding photos, I can understand why. So take a look around the place ooooooo-aaaaahhhh-hehehe we look pretty cute together don't you think? As much as I would love to show you all 93 pieces of photography I am limited on time and energy on a thing called work. Hope you enjoy the little taste of our fun filled day at the park.
At the top of the page yeha that is My Girl and Me, over there on the right is My Girl's true colors always playful sticking out her tongue but this one really got a chuckly out of me;

Then of course there is this flower picture that is priceless;
In this one we are pointing at the geese that came pretty close;
Beautiful scenery at this park with plenty of picture taking opportunity;

Monday Meandering #2

It is the beginning of summer or so says mother nature and her bad hair days (aka wicked humidity). With the dog days of summer come birthdays in my family, that only explains their need to procreate in the fall when the weather turns cooler, a bit of information I am sure you didn't need to know about my family but it makes the plot more interesting. I was the only one lucky enough to have a winter birthday on New Year's Day none the less, which totally sucks but I think I told you that before. So the birthday celebrations begin this month and to ruin the surprise for everyone I am giving gas cards as gifts, but only in increments of $10 cause that is all I can afford for all ten of you. Unless you want to roll the dice and I could give scratch off tickets with a winner clause I get half of all winnings even the lousy $1 winners. I am looking forward to seeing family again next weekend and the weekend after that and after that and by July 1 I will have just about enough of all of you until next year. Of course I am only exaggerating, could someone pass me a beer?
I am in a funk of sorts being around family and relationships. I find myself envious in a way because I wish I had a man in my life. Some days I just feel spent and want to just rest my head for 30 minutes and not have to worry if a little someone is shoving a lego up the dogs nose or her own. Or I can take a trip to the grocery store without taking a list that gets chewed up while I reach for the last can of beans only to find out that it wasn't beans I needed but beets. I used to love spending an afternoon outdoors cleaning up the yard, but I have tried that and with a toddler who is obsessed with small rocks the yard work is a simple pull of a few weeds and we are off to play on the swings.
I am more than happy with the role of being Mother it is what I was made to do, but in my mind I envisioned a partner to share the burden of an extra kleenex in their pocket when mine had been fully spent. Lately I have been angry in quiet times that I have alone when in those times I should be praising God. I am grateful that my child and I are healthy are basic needs are met, some days we even have enough for ice cream. Then the quiet sets in with my pessimistic thoughts of how come, what if, and why not me come flooding in. My patience is running thin and the lump in my throat swells to remind me of the position I sit in, and without feeling sorry for myself I think of the opportunity I have been given, and who will be lucky enough to share my life. The mix of emotions play tug of war in my head I battle the pity and humble all at the same time. I am not the only boat upon this ocean I just wish the sea wasn't so damn BIG!

Pony Sticker Momma

Yesterday Morgan had to get the last four shots of her baby life. The next time she will have to get vaccinated will be when she is 4 and that is just about enough time for me to calm down and stop shaking. I have this huge I mean HUGE anxiety problem when it comes to vaccines. When I search the internet for pros and cons it is so overwhelming that my brain shuts down. Then I end up going to the doctor and having them torture, I mean stick her tiny little legs, while they tell me to hold down her arms all the while she is screaming in my face MOMMA!!!!! It is heart breaking and as I hold back the tears and tell her what a big girl she is I hope and pray that the injection she just got won't throw her into a different world that I read about on the internet. I know the vaccine is much better than running the risk of catching a disease that may be life threatening. As a reward for torture they gave Morgan band-aids with my little pony on them which made her happy for about a minute. The ride home she would quiver her bottom lip and say pony sticker momma, pony sticker.
For the next week I will be monitoring Morgan for any bit of abnormal behavior or fever, and cursing to myself the decision I made for my child, if she falls ill. One thing I know for sure is the girls love of music did not go away, because this morning while opening her eyes she looked at me and smiled and pointed at the alarm clock "music on". You have to be sure when you say "music" it sounds like mU-sick in a baby voice a sound that will truly melt any ones heart I assure you.

Where did you get that?

Have you ever felt like you have been beat up without an actual fight?

If you had a glance at my leg I have four huge bruises in various spots. I can't recall where I was injured. Not to mention the bruise on my hip bone area to the left of my stomach, feels like the injury I sustaind when I last tried to slip and slide(I think I was 12)!

These type of bruises at sometime must have hurt like a bitch, the only thing I can think happened was I totally blacked out. Maybe it was the day I had that glass of wine???

Monday Meandering #1

I have been thinking of starting this post for sometime now, it will be a way of holding myself accountable to leave you all a piece of my thoughts over the weekend, or events that are coming up, and simple way to come here for a quick update on my life. Kinda like checking the mailbox once a week, oh what did you say? you check your mailbox daily, well you know me queen of procrastination.
Here ya go my first Monday Meander;
Let me start by letting you know the Sex and the City Movie, totally worth the $9 to get in. I was a little under dressed to sit in a dark movie theater with 396 other scantly clad women of all ages, mostly old broads like myself, but a reminder none the less that I do not get out often enough to keep up on fashion. Plus it was raining and I didn't want to chance getting my Minolo Blahniks wet not after spending Morgan's college fund on them(totally not my shoes but I can dream)! Funny thing happened in the theater full of catty women, some chic decided 20 minutes into the movie it was a nice time to fight with one of her children on her cell phone, picture this "well tell your Dad blah, blah, blah"! and being annoyed someone yelled out "Get Off the Phone!" at which the conversation was silenced only to start up again louder, being annoyed 4-5 other women piped up "GET off the Phone!" the woman on the phone did not think they were talking to her and continued for another 2-3 minutes at which time a woman stood up and said "Someone is gonna get their ass kicked" and she stood up and looked around the room but could not find the culprit and I think the woman on the phone got scared because the theater got quite and we finished watching the show. Did I mention how good the movie was? Well it was good and you just have to go see for yourself because I am not a plot spoiler and even if I was I wouldn't tell you if Carrie finally gets Big in the end!!
Saturday went to my cousin house who threw a big blow up surprise party for her fiance' he is 30!! Welcome to old age SUCKER! It was fun and we stood on the front lawn waiting for him to get home from work, when normally he pulls in at 5pm but didn't arrive until 5:10pm where I thought my cousin was going to have a panic attack on her front lawn or start walking down the street so when he turned the corner whip him with a wet noodle for being late and keeping all these people waiting just to see him turn gray from the shock of so many people wanting to get a wise crack at his age! Happy Birthday Steve your not as young as you act but you sure fooled us!! The party was fun and Morgan is not a prissy princess doll that mommie dresses her up to be, it seems that when you put a dress on a my little girl she will make a mad dash for the sand box...WET sand box and think it is the best thing since french fries. Wet sand sticks to everything but I think you all know that.
Finally Sunday Morgan and I had a photo shoot at a park in the city and here is just a sneak peak of what was taken at the beginning and I wish I could post more but that is all the photographer would send to me this morning. We had fun watching the ducks and smelling the flowers and of course climbing on the park benches.